... given av en märkt kortlek?

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och att inse sin position, sin nytta för samhället och dess komplicerade struktur av institutioner -

inse sin egen obetydliga roll i väven av mänskliga
relationer - tanken på att hugga in en kil någonstans och vad det skulle betyda; att det inte
skulle betyda någonting alls... bara i egentlig mening som att hugga ned ett träd

att befinna sig vid sidan om, inte bara bakom fasaden utan avlägsen, mycket, mycket
avlägsen dess yta - med given av en märkt kortlek i handen

det är en besynnerlig känsla hur människor stannar kvar inuti mig, i en dialog där jag prövar
dem i olika scenarier - som om de levde där helt avskilda från sina verkliga liv; det som jag varken
kan eller vill vidröra - eller vill jag det; vill jag vidröra deras liv...

känslan avdunstar nästan omedelbart; en minut, två minuter - vill jag att jag vill vidröra dem
eller vill jag att de ska vidröra mig...

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these times are not autism friendly!!

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talk in cat...


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and you go back... hide and think... weep and mourn,
and knowledge and experience become like tennis balls slowly rebounding
inside your mind... new plants take hold and
grow out of the madness of your heart; embracing you like lullabies of courage...

honesty to yourself and to the one you care about might cut into you
like gun fire - friend or foe, the bullet does not know...

i make mistakes - these are just words, nothing else,
you may or may not read them...


piquerism  (från franskan - piquer, to prick), är en parafilisk form av sado-masochism där någon finner sexuell njutning genom att penetrera en annan människa via huden - vanligtvis, men inte nödvändigtvis, med ett stickvapen (see for example PWS 1975-1980); det kan även ske med hjälp av skjutvapen (see for example, DRB 1976-1977) eller genom skärning med ett vasst föremål.

penetrationen är symbolisk


1944 avkriminaliserades i Sverige bestialitet (eller tidelag som det kallades när människor utnyttjade djur för att tillfredsställa sig sexuellt).

Samtidigt avkriminaliserades homosexualitet och klassades därefter som en sjukdom till Socialstyrelsen ändrade detta 1979. Homosexualitet handlar om kärlek mellan två vuxna individer (se t.ex. Eli Levén, Du är rötterna som sover vid mina fötter och håller jorden på plats. Norstedts 2010).

Idag sorterar bestialitet under Djurskyddslagen - att skada eller döda ett djur är oavsett syfte antingen en fråga om jaktbrott eller egendomsbrott.


a bag of symbols...    the fire well 

write a wish on a piece of paper, crumple it up and toss it into the fire well,
then as the flames eats into the paper and slowly consumes it - your wish will come true


the hole grows around me - up around me, imprisons me, the ground does so too, fencing in, locking
my feet to the bottom, covers me, sinking into the ground; which i'm not -

crimson rain, crimson veil, vapourizing

that's what happens when names don't respond, responder dirt metallic, shining armor, down we go,
the floor gets scrubbed, the dental works...


NIYV VTJLH G,  MKJH - ojzw wukmi


djurplågeri är i svensk rätt ett brott (enligt 16 kapitlet, 13 paragrafen Brottsbalken) som innebär att
någon uppsåtligen eller av grov oaktsamhet otillbörligen utsätter djur för lidande, ex. genom att djuret
misshandlas, överansträngs eller vanvårdas. straffet är böter eller fängelse i högst två år.

tidelag räknas inte som djurplågeri såvida det inte innefattar att djuret orsakas lidande.


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think things over

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depends rain encyclopedia,
a penis
think about things, and
sounds

tennis ball, back ache -
in complete
recollection, a total
of a number -
and complete the sentence without end

the penis silent, thinking over things,
what to
or what from,
or what in or what out, over things a sky watches, the encyclopedia

words,
think things over, thin things think,
off letters, off words
- not thinking, not

deny box red, encyclopedia enraged
- numb, the sex ambiguous is next to the pillar,
is next to the penis,
the next penis thinks of things long gone,
gone a long time

encyclopedia anger friendly,
a savage vapor enclosing
- wipe your glasses,
free among friends, a glass of

entire keys broken inside the penis of encyclopedic what not,
sullen days in transit,
moist wardrobe half light and wishful
- thinking things over,
easy...

not at all,
hold it up to a mirror, ask important questions again, and again, and
- remember,
don't remember remember encyclopedia, crazy
- thinking, paying for the summers past,
down among the

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friends of the bumblebee

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-Is it a quiet night in Greenwich Connecticut?
-No, the friends of the bumblebee is making a lot of noise here.
-What are they doing?
-I think they're racing motor cycles or cars, powerful engines roar...
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-Now?
-Sounds, just sounds.
-Who are they?
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-Friends of the bumblebee.
-Yeah, And Who Are They.
-Jim O'Rourke, Leif Elggren, Mats Gustafsson, David Grubbs, Dan Fröberg/Jerry Johansson, Thrurston Moore, Rozenhall, and Mats Lindström.
-Ok, thanks.
-You're welcome.
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-Welcome.
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-Oh, I forgot to mention, bob hund and Elis Ernst Eriksson. Sorry!
-It's okay.
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-Okay!
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-Yeah, thanks!
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-Thanks.
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unintelligible

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a room,
decorated with nature,
in constant change (hair color, hair cuts, close cropped eye lashes),
a fire extinguisher sits on the face of a rock that is slowly coming out of the ground,
it topples over and disappear in the thick, undulating grass
- a hand reaches in to brush it aside but the stems are sharp as knives, the hand starts bleeding,
profusely, one or two fingers are actually half severed, the hand is quickly withdrawn...

- a stick of lighted dynamite falls from the ceiling and lands where the fire extinguisher disappeared, after a few seconds there's a muffled blast, and some smoke, but the grass stays the same...

when dusk comes it gets dark very fast,
then it starts raining,
the rain pounds down without mercy, it's a violent assault, it cuts at the grass and mows it flat to the ground,
the water rises slowly giving the room a tank-like appearance,
after a while it reaches the key hole, and starts pouring out of the room,
during the night the hole gets bigger as the wood around the key hole erode,
at first light the whole door finally gives in and crumbles as the water breaks out,


at this juncture the story ends; it really didn't have much of a chance anyway...  

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mirror dream repository

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fine-tuned instrument,
sucking words out of my mirror dream repository,
(res ipsa loquitur)


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object friendly

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the intermediary reporter friendly is anger friendly, it is
a vagina when it opens, its tissue is soft and
its language is moist,
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it up and enters,
blunt needles penetrate the muscles, its signals transport the message,
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the bridge is an insult, the reporter says, it's
built to withstand the force of cataclysmic earth quakes,
the earth/metal shatters, reports back to
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it sounds great, a sideways glance as you
go by is enough to destroy me - report back,
these objects of transformation
(that you carry inside)
may be discarded so easy you'll think you never had them,
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a sound object generates pulses of emotions,
it builds bridges between opposite minds and eleviates tension,
good - no objection, it's reporter friendly,
a moldy object,
must stay still, must not move,
be more silent than a non-sound object,
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it sounds great, we've been there - reported back,
the base camp was busy, men did what men do,
going slow,
pumping up/down, up/down, cock friendly in the sunshine,
balls thick with goo, blasting images of
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reporter is river friendly,
the enemy - fatigue,
no show, the steady ejaculation of warm fire,
we didn't see it coming,
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